Come, journey back with me, when a brother was 10 years young
I was strong in my fathers shadow, never would let fear come
But, then I was blindsided, feeling deaf near dumb
All I could do was die inside, couldn’t even let tears run
{My} heart is frozen, the reason, I’d rather chill all alone
Plus it’s hard to fake a smile with what I conceal in my dome
I just wanna runaway, but go no will to go on
Cuz this house that I live in, doesn’t feel like a home
I was left in the cold with no weapon to hold
Tryna get up and go, get get with da flow
With a lesson to grow, feeling less than below
With a mess in control, can’t rest any more
Gotta be a man, barely even a teen
Tryna reach all the plans that I see in my dreams
Family, but right now, we don’t even seem like a team
Attempted suicide, popped, a whole box of pills
Didn’t really wanna die, I just didn’t wanna feel
Like a test, had to see, do I really got the will
Hoping maybe daddy would come back if he knew I was falling ill
Life envisioned through depression, it was not as real
As the years, went on, I never to stopped to heal
I just bought expensive things, for my spot to fill
But happiness it can’t be bought and I put that on the dollar bill

Tell me what’s the point of marriage, when divorce is the conclusion
What’s a counselor really doin when he forces a solution
Mind skewed when daddy moved what a distortion of improvement
What’s a child supposed to think when reinforced with an illusion
No support cuz mommas working tryna feed her 4 boys
All she needed was peace and quiet, all we gave her was more noise
Everyone falls, but will you get backup, she told me, it’s your choice
You’ve been blessed, with the rhythm God’s given you your voice
But it was, so hard to use it, cuz I was busy trying not to lose it
Going out my mind, my heart inside my chest but still ya bruised it
Couldn’t go to school, not a fool, I was just too sick
Music was my only therapy, melodical mood shift
Loose lipped poppin off at the mouth, just tryna test my limits
Secluded myself from my friends and all the rest diminished
Deep inside my pride survived, wondering will I get to finish
20 years later, picking right back up, where I left my business

Looking in the mirror, my father, I see him
Tryna see my son more often so our bonds will never weaken
Gotta wait 6 months, wishing he could see me every weekend
I can hear it in his voice, when we on the phone speaking
“Nah daddy, I ain’t crying, my eyes just leaking”
Lost, out at sea, he’s looking for me, cuz I’m his beacon
Everytime I go, his stomach knot up and his heart is sinking
He ain’t gotta say it cuz I know exactly what he’s thinking